Sunday blues...

I think colds come on right at the worst possible time.

You know, right when you have a ton of stuff going on, everything is going great, then BOOM. I feel it coming on today.

Hopefully it passes soon.

I was talking the other day with a teacher I work with and she said something that really stuck with me.  She said she wants to the be type of person that other people look at and say "wow, I really want to be like her."

It got me thinking.  Am I the type of person that people look at and want to be like?  I'm not sure. But that is the type of person that I want to start being.  When I'm stressed out, I tend to have a short fuse with people. Let me tell ya, I've been pretty stressed out lately.  I feel like I'm ruining something great without even meaning to.  Therefore, comes my 21st birthday resolutions:

1.  Don't sweat the small stuff.  I mean really.  Does it really matter if someone looks at me the wrong way or says something that sits with me funny?

2.  Stop believing the worst in everyone. I'm really bad about this one.  I jump to conclusions and always think the worst.  

3.  Give as much as I can. I know people get wrapped up in Christmas and the "giving" spirit, but I want mine to last all year round.  God has blessed me more than enough, and there is no reason for me not to give back. 

4. Be more thankful.  Going back to #3, God has blessed me with more than enough.  There is no reason for me to take it for granted.  I have been blessed with the ability to work, a wonderful family, and a roof over my head.  

5. Leave the rest to God.  Enough said. 

So there they are.  My 5 "21st Birthday Resolutions."  (even though they'll start a week before my actual birthday.)

There's Gotta be Something more...

What a weekend.  It's Saturday night, and yes I'm chillin' out at home.

I sat down today and really got thinking about how much my life has changed in the past year.  A year ago I moved out of my apartment with my best friend and had a fabulous month to spend with my then-boyfriend doing nothing but taking trips to Savannah, visiting the zoo, and thought I had the rest of my life planned and sorted out. I knew last year exactly where I would be in a year.

Now here I am, home again from school but this time for good, and 100% single.  I can honestly say I haven't been that way in a while, and that I have no idea where I will be in a year, and it's a pretty scary thought.  With graduation only 6 months away, I still have no idea where I will be student teaching, where I'll be living, where I will find a job.

I sometimes sit and just wonder where life will take me.  I know it's all part of God's plan, but not knowing just sucks.. It's been a few of the most life changing and eye opening times in my life. And honestly, I hate it.

I hate not knowing anything.  I've always been the person to plan out every detail of everything, and it's a weird feeling not being able to. It's time for me to let go.

Anyway, enough of my whining.  I've been so thankful these past few weeks to really find out who my real friends are, as cliche as that sounds.  I'm thankful to have some of the best friends I could ask for, who I know will sit and listen to me complain or cry for any extended period of time, and I don't know what I would do without them.


I had a pretty long night last night, so here I am sitting and recovering writing to you all.  But, tomorrow is Mother's Day.  It's always an interesting day, because I don't live with my mom or anywhere near my mom.  I have to split my time in between my step-mom and my mom.  My life without either of them would be drastically different.

I feel like way too often, step-moms get a bad rep.  Why? I don't know.  I've essentially grown up with mine though, since I was 7.  It's crazy to think about how long I've actually known her and all the ways she has influenced my life.  I'd be lost without her!

Now it's time for me to catch up on my reading list which has been neglected for far too long.  Tonight starts Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.  Anyone read it?


Night all!


Quote of the day:
"Your destiny never depends on anyone or anything that leaves your life. Or on a desire that doesn’t end up being fulfilled. Let go of what you wanted."
-Pastor Steven Furtick